Thoughts From Julie,
Founder of Peaceful Eater
Hi, I’m Julie Latz, the founder of Peaceful Eater.
For 45 years I was obsessed with and controlled by food. It actually felt like my life revolved around it. I was either trying the “latest and greatest” diet plan hoping I could muster up the willpower to stay on it long enough to take off all the weight, or I was eating everything in sight.
I knew no in between. All I wanted was to figure out how to eat my favorite foods in moderation. But instead I was always living at one extreme or the other; deprived or bingeing.
Because I didn’t want anyone to know how much I really ate, I used to sneak food and eat it in private. Hiding junk food and planning when I could sneak away to eat it, figuring out where to hide the wrappers and dealing with the depression of being a food addict seemed like a full time job. But, not only was it a job I wasn’t getting paid for, it was a job that came with many costs.
Being a binge eater sucked the joy out of daily living. As with any addiction, when you feel controlled by something, you’re just not “yourself.” I felt like this thing would come over me and make me screw up my diet even though I knew I’d be miserable after abusing myself with food. But I felt compelled to do it anyway.
I had a closet full of different sized clothes because I never knew what would fit depending on where I was in the dieting/bingeing cycle. I hated the way I looked in clothes and just wanted to be able to wear what I liked instead of only what fit.
I couldn’t bear looking in the mirror and I stayed as far away from the camera as possible.
When I’d go on a family outing, all I could think about was when it would be lunch time or when I could escape to the bathroom to eat whatever junk food I had hidden in my purse. I couldn’t be “present” when I was controlled by food. And I couldn’t talk to anyone about this because of the shame and embarrassment I felt about my behaviors. Honestly, it felt like I was having an affair with food.
I recall cancelling social plans with friends because I was too embarrassed for them to see me if I was heavier than the last time we had gotten together. Not only was I hiding food, I was hiding myself from life.
Finally, in October of 2010, I realized that all of the dieting I had tried only led to deprivation and that deprivation led right back to bingeing. It was a cycle I repeated for 45 years and the only way to change my life was to interrupt this pattern.
Luckily I figured out what I had been doing wrong all along. I had the mindset of a binge eater, not the mindset of a peaceful eater. I realized that I needed to live as the opposite of a binge eater in order to start feeling calm around food. By doing some simple behavioral tweaks during the day I lost my desire to give into cravings and impulses and I was able to stop the insanity of yo-yo dieting and food obsession. For years now, peaceful eating has become my daily norm.
Throughout all the years I suffered with Binge Eating Disorder, I always promised myself that if I could ever find my own way out of this crazy lifestyle, that I would devote the rest of my life to helping others so they too could stop struggling.
That’s why I created this free report where you’ll discover the 5 keys to help you feel calmer and more peaceful around food right away.
Julie Latz, Founder, Peaceful Eater